I haven’t decided anymore if I am super tired and beat down with everything I’ve had to deal with from 23-26 years old or if there is something mentally going on the makes me feel like I should just give up on life. I’ve got those really good days rolling where, I go: “I got this, I can do this. I done this like a BOSS!” Then I got those days where I’m like: “Fuck this. Why do I even try?” Today is one of those days unfortunately. Side note: I’m still thankful for my husband and children. It just seems like a bunch of wasted energy on school, on trying to get a better job with a higher pay, or the endless bills.